Sunday, August 17, 2008

it's 1am now. i bought a school bag on saturday during "band outing #3". haah it's from the brand Dickies. hahaha the name just sounds wrong to me, but the bag is like ahhh love at first sight. keren spotted it for me so i have to thank her. i've been looking for a bag ever since i got sick of sling bags, and im happy with this new bag. haha i hope it'll last till sec4. and im planning to save back the $$$ i spent on it. haha heart pain but it's about time i got a haversack. im excited to bring it to school later but i'm worried it doesnt match the yellow and blue. oh and singapore lost in table tennis. but at least we got a silver. haha the first medal in 48 years. michael phelps already won 8 GOLDS in one year. hahaha oh yeaaah go singapore.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

MICHAEL PHELPS. haha all the girls in 3A are like drooling and screaming over him almost all the time. hhaha, michael phelps bonds the 3A girls, somehow. haha but i dont really think he's that handsome (im sorry) haha. his smile's not that nice as i thought but his body is like woooooooo! hhaha i used think he was super super handsome until today when i had the time to google him and look at him more upclosely that i found that he's not THAT handsome. haaha hope i didnt offend anyone haha im sorry.

and i revived my love for waterboys2, yay!(: Akiyoshi Nakao! he's not very handsome but his smile just melts your heart. its like my problems and stress fade when he smiles. hahaa i dont know what i just said haha, but really! and his inner beauty in the show was damn nice, haha and i think his real life inner beauty is like that too.

i'll prove my point about his smile:


akiyoshi! he's the one at the bottom. the one with the BRIGHTEST SMILE. looks like siew rong right! haha like 100% la.




okay he's not really handsome and his hair's weird here, but his smile's still nice.




and another guy also from waterboys 2, Hayato Ichihara. they're best pals in the show. haha his smile's quite nice too, and especially when he imitates akiyoshi's smile

so when you combine both together,

haha i cant stand it

finally, the main cast of waterboys 2


hahah okay i need to stop this, i promise this will be the only post about water boys 2. but i might start talking about akiyoshi again. ahha anyway, had chem test and emaths test today. finally it's overrrr. haha chem test is screwed, but emaths still can la. ahha chinese test tomorrow, studied just now.

oh what i really want to say in this post is that WE (kath, keren, me) ATE LIKE MAD COWS TODAY. haha you should have seen us man, i bet it's the stress that caused our sudden eating madness. haha and i need to swim soon seriously arghhhhhh.

need to sleep now

Monday, August 11, 2008

hello just got back home from Belda's Birthday BBQ. haha, stayed over at her house on sunday night, didnt even know about the bbq la. i didnt feel like going at first but it was fun hahaha. it was like a sausage-only bbq. because we were CUTTING COSTS. hahha, it was quite funny because some people asked like "eh got tissue?" then we'll be like "no we're cutting costs" haha then "eh only got sausages ah?" then we'll go "no we're cutting costs" hahaha aiya you have to be there to feel it. haha, damn tired now, still got school tomorrow! spoilerrrr. haha but at least it's rather slack. no maths lesson at all! somemore got chapel and R&D, but got music. aiyaaaa sian, haha can one la. i think im goign to sleep now, i miss my bed. sorry belda i upload the pictures another day. i know it's been long haha.

Saturday, August 09, 2008

happy birthday to beldy, shermain and singapore. haha, and hope you all had fun.

to beldy: sorry i couldn't call/sms/msn you at 12midnight cuz i fell asleep at 8pm and missed it. haha, and im really sorry about the short message which didnt really say much because i couldnt think. so i think i shall say all i need to here. i've known you since p4. although i didnt really talk to you much then. haha and i only started talking to you from sec1 onwards. and im glad i did because i found a really good friend in you. you're someone who listens and doesnt critisize anything i say,even though you disagree. and you always bring joy because you're the only one who laughs along whenever i laugh at something weird or not funny to others. i bet if i talk to someone else the way i talk to you, they'll think im crazy or weird la. haha it may be the littlest of things but it means alot and it wont be the same if you're not there. and i cant imagine music class without you mannn. haha and we've also grown closer through music classes. (i cant wait to go japan!) haha and we always seem to find the same thing funny and we'll end up trying to control our laughter cuz we're scared miss fu/mrs daph lim explodes. haha and even though i'm not doing well in music i still enjoy it because of the people which includes you. and although you may appear to be funny and blur most of the time i know that you think quite alot because of the things you said that day when i slept over. haha, anyway i hope we'll keep in touch even if we go to different schools next time. please dont change okay haha, i hope that God will see you through as you walk on this journey of life and that you'll always remember Him beside you when you need help and comfort. (comfehhh hahahha) okay you're someone i can never ever forget. with all your extreme fears of cats and fake nose digging. hahhaha, i still remember that time when you rather get knocked down and rolled over by cars than walk past cats. hahaha best la you. okay hope you read this. doesnt mean alot but thats what im feeling now. haha okay happy birthday again, sorry didnt get you any real present. you know how we're like right. haha okay God bless. i love you beldy(:

woah i didnt know i typed so much.
and im getting more tired easily each day man. i slept at 8pm yesterday.halfway watching the opening ceremony of the olympics. i was looking forward to the introduction of the countries but the performance was really too long. and it was all chinese things. no variety, although all the props were cool and the effects were really great. but it was just too many performers for too long. so i fell asleep after half an hour, and ended up sleeping till 1am. then suddenly waking up to feed my hamsters and brush my teeth. and continued sleeping till 645. and went for a morning walk with my parents' cellgroup. i was reluctant to go at first, but it was quite enjoyable in the end. then came back to watch some of the olympics games. haha then dinner at grandma's house, and we could see the planes fly past and the fire works from the balcony haha so cool. then my cousin brought his japanese friends to my grandma's house. some exchange programme thing. and they looked so bored because they couldnt understand a word we're saying. haha and we were laughing at them when they looked so tortured by the chilli and spices in the food. hahaha their expressions were priceless. haha but it wasnt that spicy la, i didnt know japanese cant take spicy stuff until today eh. haha okay i think im talking too much.

haha but im going to spend the whole day in tampines tomorrow. haha cellgroup in the morning, service in the afternoon, and i'll wait there till 630 then report for the 7pm service cuz i'm serving! haha first time. im abit scared because i dont really have the chords now and i dont know how they usually play. haha but aiya can one la. haha just pray for me that i wont screw up and spoil everything. haha okay gtg bye. happy national day everyone(:

Saturday, July 26, 2008

school life has been stressed up lately. i mean, thats what you'd expect in a country like singaporeand plus outside commitments like church and piano, it's quite crazy. i think i've said all these before. it's like i forgot what it feels to NOT be stressed. the feeling of being free and absolutely nothing to do. it's like quite impossible now, everything just keeps coming, like non stop action. but i guess im used to it already, in fact i think i'll miss all this stress in time to come.

okaay but lets look on the bright side, most of the highly stressful events have been over for me. NBC, PIANO PRACTICAL, SPARKLERS JUNE EVENT, all over. haha but there's still end of year exams which is in 2 MONTHS time, and i havent even been passing my common tests. crazy, and this is not even the starting of all the real stress. next year will be like SYF+exco and olevels. ahh i can just imagine the tiredness. but i know my GOD will grant me the strength to carry all this through. it just makes me more comforted to know that God will only give me what He knows i can handle.

oh and btw i suddenly have this lump in the left of my neck, like it suddenly emerged. SO SCARY. it's practically 3-D when i see myself in the mirror. and i think it's the reason why my whole entire left body is aching, especially my left shoulder and arm. it's been like that the whole day but i thought it was the way i slept. only until i bathed just now at 10 something that i found out that was a lump. it's so disturbing, i hope it disappears tomorrow. please pray for me! (what if it's cancer!!!) okay nononoono IN JESUS NAME, IM HEALED AMEN.

today the band performed at CGS, some learning thing. it wasnt like what we played at NBC, but it's only normal that the standard drops when the sec4s leave. come on FSB we can do iT(:
then i had piano......my teacher passed me the grade 8 exam books already. wth the scales is mad! OMENDOG ALR! hahaaha and the pieces are even worse. i listened to the cd and there's only one piece that i like so far, and it's composed by fats waller. hahah belda and i were just laughing at the name during music recently and now i'm liking his pieces. hhaha, it's called ALLIGATOR CRAWL. super nice haha, it makes me so happy haha. i think i'm going to play it for exams, i tried playing abit just now, HAHA, die, OMENDOG ALR. hahaha.

okok so church tomorrow, and after speedlight, david's going to conduct a study session for us. and i think i need it very badly. ahha but the people in cell are like triple sciencers and smart people, i think i'm the only one who will need help man. cleavage alr mannnnz. oh and just now beldy and i tried our duet via the phone. hahah we surprisingly managed to get at least through to the 2nd last page. we're actually not bad! we spent more than 1 hour trying to get it all together. i'm playing the upper part while she's playing the lower part. i thought we'll be damn shit but we're doing fine and dandy! haha the actual thing is like is in 2 weeks time. ahhhhh still have two solos to practice. i'd probably use my grade 7 pieces in the end. come on bel we can do it(:

cleavage alr! haha (inside joke)
going to sleep now bye

Saturday, July 12, 2008

360th post!
woah the last post was on jun18th haha. okay so i've been quite busy recently, with the sparklers june event and band practices. plus school and school work+tests, it's been quite crazy. and i havent been to cellgroup/service for 2 weeks. and i wont be able to go tomorrow again because of NBC.

yes, NBC's tomorrow! i dont really feel it but i know it's coming. very soon. in 20 minutes it'll be the start of our NBC day. i think i'll miss the stress of everything after it's over. like something i'm so used to, gone just like that. after 6 months or more of practising just gone in 1 day. it feels like all the effort and hard work just gone in 1 day but after NBC it's another story for the band. tomorrow will determine whether we get a bronze, silver, gold or gold with distinction. and that will determine how many people goes to our end of year concert. which will determine how much we pay for our JAPAN TRIP AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH haha ok im so excited for the japan trip. it's like the only thing i can look forward to for the rest of this year.

now i want to encourage all FSB members and i know we can do it if we really try our best tomorrow ok. we have been practicing so hard and dont waste everything in one day! i know we can get our gold with distinction if we remember whatever mrs chua has told us and relax on stage! haha pretend the audience are trees (quoted from yu pei) hahaha. just relax tomorrow and enjoy your time on stage. and after NBC we can really really relax and enjoy even more. haha we can do ittttttttttttt! play your best and God will do the rest (:

okay im going to sleep now, gotta be in school by 7am tomorrow. keep us in prayer!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

blisters, i've got blisters all over my feet. damn disgusting but satisfyingly fun to pull out the skin. i have no idea why i typed that, maybe because i was analysing those blisters before i decided to blog.

so it's thursday already, 4th day of the last week of holidays. which means....3 more days till school starts! argh, the thought of it just makes me wish for Jesus to come faster to take me up to heaven. and i could be enjoying life in heaven with God and looking at my reflection in the gold plated streets and not worrying about the endless homework which i can hear calling my name as i blog now. but since i cant do that, i guess i'll really really really really really really start chionging.

i'm staying home the whole of today to try to get some work done, and it was supposed to be a completely-distraction-free homework session. but i guess you can tell i failed since i'm blogging now. haha, nigel's coming over later to do homework i think, and he'll be able to help me in my physics and chemistry. probably even maths. yay!

tomorrow's going to be a damn busy day. it's fully packed! from 8am to 10+pm. haha, see, band from 8 to about 12, then we going to have a band outing! hahha we're going to sentosa, so from 1 to about 5 i'll be at sentosa. then i'll have to get myself to tampines mrt by 630 for dinner with the cellgroup before snow. hahah and snow will end around 10 something.
im so excited for tomorrow!(:

but right now, i'm going to get my butt back to the homework table located in the living room.
ok here i go!

Monday, June 16, 2008

shit one more week to school. haha, and homeworkkkkkkkkk. oh my gosh, i really doubt i can finish everything or even half of it by sunday. but there's still a slightttt slight chance if i dont listen to music or have my phone nearby, or the laptop next to me. but knowing myself, i think i'll end up moving myself to the laptop even if im far from it.

we have 1o more practices to NBC, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh and i dont think we can get gold with the standard we have now. maybe a silver but not gold. and thats what we're aiming for. ok band i know we can do it! we're not putting our best into practices thats why we're not getting the standard. i really think we will be the miracle of getting a gold within 10 practices if we really really try! haha i know none of the band peeps will be reading my blog can have the miracle of but still.

so we watched left behind 1 on sunday during cellgroup. and again, i was reminded of the last days and all the rapture+tribulation stuff. it gives me quite a rough picture of whats going to happen in real life, and i already feel scared for the characters in the show.so i imagine me actually in a situation like this, it just freaks me out la. and i was reminded of the song "Someting Happens", a really meaningful song we sang in speedlight before.one part of it goes like "i will fall to my knees when the world doesnt worship you" i mean, can i really say and mean that? it's pretty hard if you think of it. or at least, it's hard to me.
this song just makes me feel so motivated to do so much for God but i pray i will "less talk more do".

ok im going to be semi-homealone for the next few days until friday. my family is going to penang for their cellgroup retreat. i was supposed to go but ahh too lazy. imagine next time lightning got cellgroup retreat! haha so coooool! OH BTW SNOW(SPEEDLIGHT NIGHT OF WORSHIP) THIS FRIDAY! it's at tampines so who wants to go! haha it's going to be really fun and cool! haha Jesus walked all the way to calvary with the cross on His back for YOU, so the air conditioned mrt ride shouldn't be too uncomfortable. haha, AHHHH so excited for snow hhaha! please come! tell me if you want to go ok(:

yeah so im still trying to decide if i should send my family off tomorrow.
reasons not to go:
1.i'll have to get up at 4am
2.i need my sleep
3.i'll probably end up not doing homework when i get back (not good)
4.i want my sleep

reasons to go:
1.i have a sudden craving for the airport (sounds so weird but yaaa)
2.i feel happy at the airport
3.i just like the airport
4.my family sent me off when i went to NZ and thats was quite early too i think
5.i'll feel bad if i dont

howhow, aiya i'll go la. my ah yee's coming to stay over so thats why i'm semi-homealone. hahah i think it'll be quite fun! ok i gtg help my family pack .hahahaha they're going to PENANG. and they're taking PLANE. haha taking a plane to malaysia o.o and they're practically bringing the whole house. kkkkkkkk im going.

Saturday, June 07, 2008

speedlight games day tomorrow! hahaha im' so excited.i just realised yesterday, and i've been excited ever since. haha, so anyway, all my posts have been meaningless and i know my english is getting from bad to worse. but these are all in my head and it comes out like that. haha, i'm so hungry now): but i dont want to eat. cuz i know i'll regret after that. and recently i feel so weird after eating.

i woke up today with a sore throat. haha, i dont know how i got it over night. my ah yee said i kept tossing and turning in bed last night. haha, i dont remember, but i know i already felt the pain in my throat in my dream. haha OH OHOOH I dreamt that i grabbed a pair of scissors and just cut my fringe into bangs and half the side of my hair without even thinking. then i felt like i did something courageous. until i looked into the mirror, and i regretted like mad and i was so angry with myself and wondering how i'll go to school and things like that. haha so when i woke up i was like THANK GOD THANK GOD. haha so THAT has taken away my recent considerations about cutting my hair.

i'm going to sleep early today, i have to be at the macs opposite church at 8am. haha thats like crazy, if i take the mrt i have to wake up at 630am. hahha but i'm still excitedddddddddddddddd!

it's just a feeling

Friday, June 06, 2008

i'm officially 15! haha, yay. this the year i get my ic. haha and i have until 19th june to get it. so for last 10 minutes of my birthday, i wish to thank everyone who wished me happy birthday and those who got me presents. haha, i'm not going to list anyone here because it might seem abit......ahh i dont know. and i might miss out someone.

so i was out almost the whole day. didn't really do much but still tired. haha, met keren at plaza sing to eat lunch and then go for the balloting for NBC. fairfield will be the 5th band playing in the 2nd division. haha we were supposed to be 2nd but switched because the band in front of us has the same conductor. then we walked back to raffles city and keren treated me to starbucks for my birthday. hahah then walked around, didn't see anything nice to get.

went to one of the small shops in holland and we got a shirt each. hahaha, so dumb right, walk around town the whole day and end up buying a shirt in holland. but at least i got something. haha, then went to put my stuff down at home and went out to bugis to meet the cell pals haha.
we had fun at minds cafe.

okok this post is getting nowhere. i'm just going to stop here and put up pictures. i have ALOT to put up. i think i should put them in a seperate post.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

it is now 11:14pm on the 05th of june 2008. haha, which means it is the last hour of my 14th year in life. haha, i'll turn 15 when the clock strikes 12:12am. haha, i dont know if i'll be sleeping then, but im pretty tired now. i woke up at 6am today to do homework. i bet i was crazy but i dont know, just felt like it.

okay ignore the 1st paragraph. it's already 12:29am, so i'm already 15. haha, thank you everyone who wished me and im very touched haha(: anyway, first of all,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NICHOLAS AND FEEB, my co birthdayers. haha, i love you pals(:

i have alooooooooooot of things to talk about and to say here but i dont know which to say first. argh, they're all stuck in my head and i forgot some of them already. okok i'll just type whatever comes to my mind, it might not make sense and might have lots of repeated stuff but argh you dont have to read, i just have to get it out.

i've been going out this whole week. everyday, hhaha to various places and with different groups of people. it's really not what i expected my holiday to be like. i thought i'd stay at home every single day and do homework. haha, but no. maybe it's only for this week. i HAVE to stay at home the next few weeks. okay at least one week. i plan to set aside a homework week. where i stay at home from monday to friday and just do homework. sounds impossible, haha i think it is too, but i'll try my best.

ok i'll continue tomorrow.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

okay so the music composing workshop ended on thursday. and it was fun! haha, but stressful at the same time. so on the first day we went to check out the list of groupings. HAHA and we were laughing like mad because one group has 2 people hahahaha. it's quite funny because we expected at least 5 people. ahha and we were wondering what daphne was thinking. aha aiya it was just funny in that moment of time hahaha.

so my other group member is a guy from Queenstown sec called Chen Xing. ahha, he's quite nice and he helped me quite alot and i feel very bad cuz on the last day when we were supposed to compose a piece in a day and i hogged the whole keyboard and he had to go find another keyboard ahha so sorry.

and MR Morton was so funny and fun. ahaha, he kept making us sing and he could compose good stuff on the spot, really cool. haha and he's full of energy, more energy than most of us, for an old man. ahah he was jumping around and running here and there while we were sinking down in our plastic chairs.

the first day was okay, fun but i dreaded it when we were told to go to the keyboards and do our tasks. hahaa, and it was the first day that Dragon Eggs in Tiger's Nest was created. belda insisted that it's tiger's lair. haha but i think tiger's nest funnier. it's actually like two dimsum things amongst the bee hoon. hahaha, and it was super funny because we imagined it to be like the Buddha Jumps Over The Wall kind of thing. hahaaha and then you look at it and it's like ahhaha.
okay i bet you dont get it but it was funny.

the second day was the worst and i was super irritated at the start. but it got better after the morning tea and lunch. hhaha, made friends with Nelson who looks like alot of people i know. ahhaa oh and belda's buddy who's called Xin Ning looks like Madeline, Magdalene and semi ruth. hahaha like totally. i cant stand it. i have some pictures(: anyway, on the second day i couldn't wait for the whole thing to end but now i kinda miss it): haha.

anyway we composed our piece on the third day. and im surprised i actually managed to come up with something within the time limit. haha, everytime mrs lim asks us to compose i'm always the slowest and lousiest. but anyway the previous night i prayed for ideas and inspiration the next day. so i guess thats why i managed. haha, and it turned out okay and better than i expected on the "concert" in the auditorium.

and we took quite alot of photos but i dont know what was wrong with me that day. i sucked in all the pictures, worse than usual. and i got a headache on the way home and went straight to bed when i got home.

ok this post sucks i'm going to end here. end of story hhahahha.

Labels: Dragon Eggs In Tiger's Nest HAHA

Monday, May 26, 2008

some of the really cool pictures from an email my mother sent me today. haha they're Cool and Creative advertisements in other countries, like UK and Switzerland and all the other cool countries. i dont think you can find anything like that in Singapore, where everyone's just concerned about education and how to make it big. i didn't get some of them at first, but just look carefully haha. i guess these are really old and it's been circulating round the net since forever, but today's the first time i saw them. haha so i'm still fascinated now.


the following two pictures are mini cooper ads. haha!
the people loook like they're going in and coming out
from the mini cooper but they're really walking into
the underground thing. really cool.



some job company ad.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

it's sunday today! haha, we had combine cell with rachel's cell at dion's house. haha, we were supposed to be one hour earlier than usual (10am) but i think alot of people forgot, and came at 11am. the reason for the one hour earlier thing is because of the plan to watch LEFT BEHIND 2. natasha couldn't find LEFT BEHIND 1 so we had to make do with the second part. haha, there're like 14 parts in all.

LEFT BEHIND is this movie/series? about The Rapture and The Great Tribulation. so it's like a fictional story based on the bible's predictions, mostly from revelations. it covers everything from the rapture to the 7 years of tribulation and then the happy ending which is when Jesus comes down from Heaven and brings everyone else up. it's really a good show, i want to watch the rest of it! i was feeling so anxious and scared for the good guys in the show. haha, the anti christ was supposed to be full of charisma and things like that but he was just....ugly, to me. haha.

okay and service was abit....dead. haha, deadier than usual. they played the part 2 video of Morris Cerullo's message and the organ thing was playing in the background. it was okay at the beginning but it got abit annoying halfway through. haha, then evan was telling me about reLEVAtion. ahahha, he keeps saying relevation,and it's really supposed to be reVELAtion. hahhah, i couldn't stand it so i got him to practice saying revelation. so he was like "revelation, revelation, relevation, relevation......" until i couldn't really hear the original word anymore. hahaha, it's okay evan, keep practising!(:

and yesterday was hillsongs concert! oh my goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so good so good(:
3A and a whole lot of other fairsians were at the floor instead of the chairs. so we had more space to jump and stuff. haha, and i did an embarrassing thing just when the lights dimmed and the concert was starting. haha, i mistakened someone for leon and i was super enthusiastic about greeting him. hahaha it was just so soo so embarrassing. haha, good thing it was dark so he couldn't really see me. haha, the rest of the concert was just great. people were throwing glow in the dark sticks everywhere and it looked like falling stars. haha quite a few hit my head but im' sure i threw some of which hit someone elses' head too so i'm not complaining(: haha, and everyone was jumping and singing so loudly. and i was thinking like, "wow if only speedlight was like this". it WAS something like that, i just dont know what happened over the years.

so today after speedlight, chloe, natasha and i went for lunch at Tampines Mall for a change.we had a hard time trying to convince natasha to go TM haha. $-saving chloe and i wanted to eat at the small shops down in the basement but high class natasha wanted to eat at pasta mania. so we obediently followed and almost spent my whole day allowance on just a 7-inch pizza. haha, but it was quite okay. we spent quite alot of time talking about speedlight and revival. we were talking about all the ways we can improve in and stuff. and im glad i finally said some things i wanted ot say for a long long time. i feel relieved. and i truly believe there'll be a revival in speedlight soon, with God's help.

anyway, we sang the song, Healer, yesterday at the concert. it's one of the songs that touched me the most last night. because the writer (i couldn't catch his name)wrote this when he was just diagnosed with cancer and he had such faith in God to write this song. the words are just so meaningful and it just touches me alot.



sorry i cant find the lyrics and im too lazy to type them out so just try to listen to each word okay(:

I believe, You're more than enough for me

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

i finally cried today. hhaha, i havent been crying for super long and i guess thats why i felt bottled up yesterday. i didn't cry much but i still feel much much much better.hahaha i saw phoebe at her locker on the way to class, and i just started crying. haha it has nothing to do with phoebe but ahhhhh i dont know. but thanks feeb anyway.

today's chemistry practical was the best. hahaha raphael is the best lab partner man. hahah! we always end up being the last to finish the experiment. haha and we'll observe people measure the stuff in the burette thing. hahahaha super funny, today we were laughing at zachary.
maybe thats why we're so slow. but anyway, today was supposed to be the serious practical. and i was quite fast in the beginning. i was thinking to myself, 'yeah i can do this fast for the first time.' hahah then somehow i slowed down and when everyone was on their second/third titration, i was still on my first. i was super sianed because it was taking damn long. hahaha, then i asked raphael something and i dont know what i was thinking, i just dropped the whole conical flask onto the floor. and my skirt and blouse was soaked in dilute hydrochloric acid & some other chemical. haaha, super embarrassing because everyone heard the glass breaking. and they all thought it was raphael.

haha i still cant believe i just let it drop like that. hahaha, i really dont know what i was thinking.
okay another thing, i lost my diaryyyyyyyyy): haha thats the stupidest thing to be sad about, but i feel very lost without it. haha, all the birthdates of people are in it, and what i have and planned to do are all in it! argh i left it in the maths classroom on the 4th floor i think, but the classroom was locked when i went after school. anyone who finds it please return it to me okay, thanks(: and dont laugh at whatever stupid things i wrote in it ah ahha.

and i also lost one set of uniform. haha it's in a ziploc bag and i think my name's written in marker at the bottom right corner of the ziploc. so please return if you find it okaaaaay.

this post sucks. ahah i'm too lazy to rephrase my sentences or think of proper words to use and what i'm talking about, so please forgive me okay. haha, it's the last day of school but doesnt feel like it. and the school is making us go back to school just to collect report book wth. anyway koolkeedz&pals want to go to sentosa tomorrow, my mother surprisingly let me go but i'm too lazy. haha i guess i'll go?

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

i felt bottled up in the morning. haha, i dont know how to describe it but i just felt like my emotions were all crumpled and crammed into a small bottle.

esther didn't come school and kathleen signed out after chapel which was the second period. but today was still kinda fun. physics was bad, it's always been.especially with miss ong pmsing.
during recess, timothy took out the potato salad we made yesterday and practically let everyone sample. haha and belda ended up eating half the whole thing. okay not really but she kept saying it's nice. but everything's nice to her so cant really be trusted hahah!

after school was great. haha, we had our first 8AKK lunch during weekdays! only 6 of us were there but still, it was an accomplishment. we haven't had time to even talk properly this year. it suddenly felt like how we used to go out last year. it's like, a little taste of 2007. haha, i dont know how to say it but i'm sure the rest felt the same way. we got to go out today because belda and i didn't have music, haha again. mrs lim cancelled lessons quite a number of times this year already. hahaha, poor art students. hhaha.

so we went to sumo house, quite surprisingly because i thought lizhen and ren ting would have violent objections. haha, oh ohohhooh and on the bus to clementi, we made friends with jorel's sister. hahahaha it was super funny. we sort of cornered her, okay it was accidental. we just sat around her then jingwen asked if she was a netballer cuz she was super tanned. haha, and then we asked what school and what level she was in. THEN belda had a sudden outburst. she pointed one finger and THREW herself forward at her and went, "EH YOU ARE JOREL'S SISTER RIGHT!" SUPER LOUDLY. hahahaha everyone was super shocked especially jorel's sister. hahaha apparently jorel's sister had her name with the "choo" on her waterbottle and it was facing belda. and belda had a sudden enlightenment hahah. yeah but it was fun talking to her,she's much nicer than jorel. we asked if he treated her nicely and she was like "nooooo" hahahha, i knew it. they both look alike though, the way they talk and smile. haha, and their tanned skin and their teeth.

hhaha so we had a fun time at sumo house, maybe because we havent had anything like this for a long long loooooooong time. so lizhen, ren ting, jingwen and phoebe had to leave for queensway so belda and i sat at the small macs and snacked on ice cream, crackers and a 1.5litre bottle of green tea and talked until 5 something.

then we felt really fat so we decided to go run and swim. so we planned our exercise route and we carried it out quite successfully. haahah i still cant believe i swam with belda. it's something i never thought i'd do. haha, there was one lap where she suddenly changed strokes and i started laughing in the middle of the poool and almost died. hahaha okay not almost died la.
but it was really embarrassing.

we planned to swim 40 laps (crazy for a start), and ended up swimming 20. haha, and we slacked quite abit and thought about synchronised swimming. hahahhahah super funny, we were making alot of noise i think. we thought of new actions and poses.hahahhaha we're going to show ian tomorrow. because it involves abit of the soldier (i know it's wrong spellign hahah) boy dance he taught us last time.

we're thinking of swimming every tuesday after music. haha i think it'll work! hahah belda we can do it(:

okay i really dont feel like going school tomorrow, we're gonna get KILLED in english tomorrow. haha, presentation and we havent even gotten anything done. we're the best man. haha, haaaaiz. oh and btw i dont need to meet the parents! haha, yayyyyyy but still have to go to school at 10am to get report book. why cant they just give us tomorrow. arghhhhhh.

i want to sleep now.

Labels: 8AKK's First Weekday Lunch, Jorel's Sister.

Monday, May 19, 2008

today's vesak day. all i know about vesak day is that it's a public holiday. hhaha i dont really know who celebrates it. i thought i'll be able to slack at home but in the end i was out the whole day. oh and today it occurred to me that Hand Foot and Mouth Diesease actually occurs on the hand, foot and mouth. sounds dumb but really, it hasnt occured to me before. haha, timothy was laughing like mad la, i mean, i felt stupid enough and he just had to laugh. he said he thinks i have HFMD because my supposedly sandfly bites are spreading. anyway, at least i learnt something new today.

i actually woke up early on a public holiday. haha i still wonder how i did it. i'm probably in the school mood. hhaha, then i went to east coast park for a father-daughter bonding session. it was quite fun, just sat at the rocks near the sea and talked while eating crackers+tuna, pretty cool. it's been awhile since we had a father-daughter bonding session and i felt like the 5 year old me when i spent almost every minute of the day with my father.

had lunch at the lagoon food centre thing, the sugar cane is woooo! haha, but i think it's the lemon that made it so nice, sugar cane without lemon is just not right for me. haha and my father convinced me to eat pig trotters. ahah it wasnt that bad actually, but the name puts me off. pig trotters.

so timothy asked me if i could make it to his house to make potato salad, for the fun fair food sampling. haha, reached his house at about 1 and went to sheng siong to get the stuff. hahahha, we met alot of people. okay not really alot, but we saw mr quek and his wife (they look alike) and gerrald, my obs pal. haha, he didn't seem very happy to see me. i expected him to be shocked and surprised and everything but no. ahha, whatever happened to all the bonding in obs. ): so after that i felt damn sad, not really because of gerrald but i dont know why. just felt sad.

kathleen came at around 2 plus and we started doing the potato salad. they said i was too neat and slow in dicing the carrots. haha but i thought they were too messy. hahaha, there were so many bits of carrot on the floor after kath cut okay. so anyway, the potato salad turned out pretty good. haha, just that the mayo made us feel damn fat. haha, and there's like one big bowl left, and timothy's gonna bring it to schoool tomorrow. can save money on recess(:

oh btw i need to save $2000 by december for the japan trip. hahah, and im only left with about 6months, and i only saved about $10. so have to start chionging already! haha, i had $200 at first but i dont know where it all went to.quite scary.

then we went to the swings near timothy's house. and swang? haha for quite a while. swings really make you happy. while swinging i totally couldn't feel any sadness. haha but it came back after awhile. and swings are so hard to find in singapore now. they really should put more swings around. then everyone can be happy.

so we sat down and talked after we were tired of swinging. and we played truth or dare. haha but in the end everyone chose truth cuz we were too tired to think of dares. then timothy started sharing with us about how to initiate a french kiss. hahahahha super funny. and he was super open about his planned future sex life. kathleen and i were so disgusted. hahaha!

then we left timothy and went to my house so i could get $$$ and kath could charge her phone. and we proceeded to ya kun! hahaha yakun and swings bring joy.

im in the holiday mood now but there's school tomorrow, damn irritating. i bet the usual ponners in my class wont go to school this week. especially on friday. haha, i havent missed a single day of school this year so far(: haha and i actually started on amaths holiday homework already. im aiming to finish everything by the start of holidays. haha, i usually fail but i have a slight feeling i'll be able to do it this time.

ok i'm going to continue my obs post.

Monday, May 12, 2008

i know i havent completed the previous post but i'll do it when my mind is clear okay. hahha anyway today was the first day of school after obs. and it started off bad. me and jingwen were late for school. i woke up at 645. hahha, supposed to be in school like by 720 or something. i dont even know how the system works now. i think we're supposed to be seated by 7 15 or something. but anyway, me and jingwen reached the back gate at 718 but we were told to go to the front gate. like wth, we were early damn it. argh, and there were still people walking innnnn. unfairunfairunfairrrrrrrrr.

so we did detention today, but mrtancheewan says it's not counted because we were supposed to self study at the sky bridge but we were in the canteen. and we actually did study and do homework okay. and we thought he wouldn't check because he normally wouldn't. in the end he found us in the canteen and so we have to do detention tomorrow again.sianz.

and i totally couldn't concentrate at all. actually i think the whole class couldn't.everyone was talking about obs. especially for the first period, which was emaths, ng may gay's period. oh my gosh i was damn scared she would suddenly burst out because we werent' paying attention at all. and you know how miss ng is right, she can suddenly mood swing and throw someone out of the class. but i really just couldn't concentrate. i kind of miss mr yap and his lessons now. haha, hopefully we'll meet him again one day.

the following lessons weren't so bad. but still, i had to stop and scratch my arms and legs now and then. and samantha and cassandra, especially cassandra would keep reminding me to stop by threatening to cut my wrist with a scissors.samantha told me to go to the doctor's. it's like no way man, not gonna waste money on mosquito and sandfly bites. haha, i appreciate all the care and concern, cassandra&samantha but in the end i still scratched.i really couldn't help it. ahha.

ohoohohoh i got back my amaths and emaths test today. im super happy for emaths test. got 24.5/30, not bad already man, considering the 3/30 i got for the previous test. haha! but i still failed amaths test, got 13/30. TWO MARKS. and i did study.

there's phototaking tomorrow for 3A and band. haha, i hope it'll be nice. sec3 and sec4 are the years for memories so we better make the photo nice man, 3A! haaha and band tooooo. uppersec will be wearing full uniform, gonna be super hot.

got so many things on after school! phototaking, and music. and there's supposed to be detention but i think music overrides detention. and we're all dead for music, none of us know how to do the transposing thing, beldy and i cant even find the worksheet, no wait, we dont even know how the worksheet looks like haha. and the performing notes thing like anyhow do. hahaha, okay 1:00am already. i need my sleeeeeeeep.

Friday, May 09, 2008

this is my 345th post! hahha, so cool. anyway, i just got back from OBS local. it wasn't that tiring, at least compared to lumut and all the other OBS overseas. i was in the Marco Polo group. hahah i love it like mad man. even though on the the first day in the school foyer, i was super disappoinetd when i saw my group. i was like "shit, gonna be damn boring" ahha but it turned out to be otherwise.

there were only 4 girls and 11 guys in Marco Polo. so there was:
1.Mabel
2.Joanne
3.Jia Xin
4.Me
5.Raphael
6.Milton
7.Eugene Poon
8.Eugene Lim
9.Keith
10.Zachary (went home due to medical reasons)
11.Joshua Low
12.Sebastian
13.Henry
14.Kenneth Teo
15.Gerald

if you noticed, we are people from all walks of life. like totally no link in school, and people i thought i'll never ever talk to. e.g Henry and Gerald. and some i never knew existed in Fairfield. haha, but anyway, we managed to bond and work well together so YEAH. i love Marco Polo.

our instructor was Elton. haha yeah, the Elton as in Elton John. hahah, he was totally like Mr Yap. me and raphael kept comparing him with Mr Yap ahaha.they're 100% alike, the way they talk and their appearance. except that Elton can control us abit more. haha, Elton let us do most of the things on our own. like packing our bags, the stall (storeroom), pitching up the tents, cooking, and didn't really tell us in detail what to do. he just demonstrated once and we were on our own. but we saw other groups with the instructors with them almost all the time, guiding them step by step how to do the stuff. and Elton expected quite alot from us, so we were frustrated at times. but these are some of the things that bond the group more, when we have to think of how to solve our own problems. so overall, our instructor was pretty good.

so, over the past 5 days, i've been with Marco Polo, pitching and unpitching tents, washing mess tins, pots and utensils, going on hiking and kayaking expeditions, hearing the guys (and joanne hahahaha) complain about abrasions, feeding mosquitoes and sandflies. oh and on the first day, SOMEONE burnt my hair. hahaha it was scary at first because there were split ends but it's okay now. haha it better be.

and the bites on my arms and legs are crazy. they're like mountains. so my skin is super bumpy. i bet people will think im' suffering from some diesease. the expeditions were t-i-r-i-n-g. super.
i thought the hiking would be worse than the kayaking because of the weight of the bags when we hike. but now i feel that hiking was more fun than kayaking. cuz my group managed to bond through talking since we had to keep each other occupied and going since it was such a looooong way.

here's what i found out or feel about the people in my group:

1.Gerald-He has a short tongue. hahaha, as in really really short. i'm not saying it's a bad thing but you should hear and see the way he talks. super cute. hahhaa i kept trying to make him say things with the letter "S". i can tell it's him speaking without having to see, just by hearing the pronounciations. and he's a really really nice guy. his hands were bleeding already but he insisted on opening up the cans to be crushed. and he's a pro at opening cans.ultra speed man. and he opened the cans because he knew, and everyone knew that no one would want to. yeah but i had to stop him from using the f word a number of times. ahaha, but other than that, he was one of the people in the group who i made friends with, and impacted me.

2.Joanne-She was my close friend in my primary 5 and 6 years. and we totally drifted and didn't talk to each other for so many years. and here we are in the same obs group. anyway, she was the most calm person during the camp. she was smiling and joking when the group was under stress. not that she wasn't taking it seriously, but she made the atmosphere lighter. i dont know how she did it,when i was all really super angry and frustrated, she somehow made it better by showing me that i could choose not to be negative.she made us laugh like mad by saying out of nowhere that she was having an abrasion hahahahhahaa. it was super funny because only the guys were complaining of abrasions and we all thought that abrasions were only for guys at the .. you-know-where. oh and she walks super fast. her bag was damn heavy during the hiking trip but she was the first few people at the front throughout the journey.

3.Raphael-i've been in the same class as him since sec1. and we'll still be in the same class next year, so we're gonna be classmates for my entire secondary school life. hahha super cool. i still remember how he used to be my home econs partner in sec1. i was super angry at him cuz he slacked and ate all the way. and i thought he was lazy and immature. hahaha, but he's really matured and changed over these years. he was one of the people in the group who reached out and took the initiative to help. he was also one of the main sources of laughter for the group. he's another one that made the atmosphere lighter whenever we were all demoralized.

4.Milton-he's another one who has matured. haaha, although he was still one of the noisiest and pervertic guys in the group, he has matured, as compared to last time. ahaha at least he knew when to be quiet. and he also helped the group alot by setting up the tents. he's a pro in pitching man. hahah, he kept disturbing and insulting me for the WHOLE FIVE DAYS but! it's okay. hahaha, then everyone kept calling him wolverine. i dont know why but even the instructor called him wolverine. hahah milton+keith or milton+raphael=the best funny combination.

5.Keith-when i hadn't known him yet, i thought he was in a gang or something. hahah, and i thought he'd be one of the slackers and the "dont care" attitude kinds, but no. he was nothing like that. haha, yeah i think he can be an obs instructor. really! haha, i kept telling him that during the land expedition. haha, he was the one who set the ends of my hair on fire but! nevermind.and he kept disturbing jia xin hahhaa. super bad but super funny. one e.g., jia xin was like "eh i feel like drinking coke" then keith said, "orh then go back take and drink la" hahahaha it's not funny here but you have to see the way he says it. like as if it's nothing. and you must see jia xin's reactions. and there are many times this similar situation happened. hahahahha i feel so bad for laughing but i cant help it. hahah he was one of the main strengths of the group.

6.Eugene Poon-this guy has really matured. when i knew him in sec1, he was so arghhhhh so annoying and irritating. and he would never ever help me last time. i was like his arch enemy. hahah and i thought the whole camp was ruined since he was in my group. hahaaha but he turned out to be nothing like i expected. hahha, he was one of the most enthu people in the group. he lost his voice on the first day, hahahah which is maybe why it was abit more peaceful.
hahah, but yeah, he was really nice during the camp.not really used to the nice Eugene, haha but im really happy he matured. haha, and yeah, i'm glad he was in my group too.

7.Eugene Lim-weird guy who emos whenever he eats. hahaha, we think he reflects on life when he eats but he says he's trying to enjoy. hahha, he was also one of the sources of laughter with his "michael jackson" moves. he nagivated us during the sea expedition without specs. hahah, and we almost ended up lost. but nevermind. oh he's in love with mushrooms. MADLY. hahaah, each meal he'll be like "eh got mushrooms?" hahaha, and he orders people to talk to his cans of mushrooms. weird right. hahaha, but it's rather funny la. and the instructor kept saying he looks gay. hahaha and kept calling him gay. and it's quite funny because the way he reacts to it. hahah yeah he's a really nice guy. and i believe he isn't gay. haha.

okay it's 11:58pm and i'm damn sleepy already. i guess i'm sort of used to sleeping by 11pm cuz of obs. haha, i'll continue tomorrow.

Labels: The 345th Post and Marco Polo.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

hello tomorrow's obs! hahhaha i feel excited now. even though it's only local, i think it'll be tiring. haha anyway i just finished packing and i'm super happy i managed to squeeze EVERYTHING, 5 days worth of EVERYTHING into my bag. hahhah, but it's all thanks to my ah yee. haha, she was an ex obs instructor so she taught me everything about making your bag compact and stuff.

haha, i really really want to know my group now. i think i'm only excited for that! haha, i wonder how the lumut people are doing. i bet theirs is damn fun like 10 times more fun than local but ahhhhh. nevermind.

ok i'm gonna sleep now. dont miss me for the next 5 days(:

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

"I PASSED".

today was the first test i passed in WEEKS. and it's music practical. 23/40. hahaha i passed by 3 marks only, but still, i passed. haha, the chance to say "I passed" in sec3 is so rare.at least, for me. and to say "I passed" is not easy at all. the effort and time put into studying for each test is just crazy. and all of that, to pass.

i'm going to make sure i pass every test after wheel week. so irritating each time i get back 3/30, 8/30, 10/30, it's just so demoralising each time. the worst part is when i think of getting my mother to sign the test papers.

had band today, didn't really do much. i came late because of emaths retest. btw i think i'll pass it(: haha, after going through amaths test, the emaths seems so much easier. maybe thats where amaths is useful. so everyone was out for sectionals and i lost my mouthpieceeeeee.
okay i didn't lose it. someone tookit. when i came, my case was already opened and my mouthpiece wasnt there. so it's not my fault. mr quek almost made me pay for it. like $50 or more.

in the end i took a mouthpiece from someone's case. all the mouthpieces look the same but this one looks like mine. so i'm going to use it from now on. haha, so mrs chua taught me for like 1hour plus. trying to teach me the "tofu lips" theory to help me with my high notes. hahaha, it makes sense but it's hard to apply it.and after the one hour i didn't really manage to do exactly what she said. i feel like a big disappointment, again. got to practice like mad mannnnnnn. i knew i was lousy but it wasnt until today that i realised i was that bad. argh, stressed):

but! tomorrow's labour day! haha, it doesnt make sense. i thought it's the day when people DONT work. so why is it called labour day! shouldn't it be, free day or unlabour day or something. haha, okay so there's PAO tomorrow. performing arts outing, hahahaha. nah poser academy outing! hhahha i think i'll be fun at seoul garden. haha, then after that there's ministry dinner. haha, it's like a dinner to thank the people who are serving in ministries. haha and i havent even started serving. i'm sort of like on probation.
sharon better be going man! if not it'll be damn weird because i dont really know everyone. haha, hope it'll be fun.

oh btw today was miss fu's and mr yap's last day. i'll miss them! ): they both gave us ferrero rochers. haha, and mr yap kept apologizing for causing our maths to drop. haha it was so......): haha, and it wasnt entirely his fault because we didn't listen all the time. and miss fu brought joy to our music lives. hahaha, she's really nice and i think she'll make a good music teacher. anyway i'll really miss them both ): .

TIME NOW, 10:52. heading to bed now, first few times i can sleep so early. hahah, byeeeee(:

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

OKAY i'm finally blogging again, see belda. haha, and i didn't realise how i havent blogged since 5th april, which is 24 days ago. hahaha the 24 days passed super fast and maybe thats why i dont remember not blogging for so long.

anyway, these few days, okay weeks have been stressed. it's like continously stressed up. you guys know how that feeling sucks right? haha like test, after test. and failure after failure. really, i've really been failing ALL my tests. im not being dramatic here, i got 3/30 for emaths test. haha, i know there's no point complaining about results and things like that so therefore, i aim to pass all tests when school starts after OBS week and everything.

right now, all i can do is pray and hope that i pass the amaths, emaths and physics i just took. argh i'm such a disappointment.

anyway obs is next monday. and we dont even know our groups yet. i heard they'll only tell us on the way to palau ubin or something like that. I WANT TO KNOW MY GROUP NOW! it's the most exciting part about obs la. haha,i really hope my group is nice. or else the whole week will be gone.

ahh okay i need to sleep already, not been sleeping much these few days cuz of homework and tests. gtg.

Saturday, April 05, 2008

today was the launch of the 120 day countdown to the Fairfield's 120th birthday. haha 120 years doesnt sound very old but compared to other schools, we're actually quite old. haha, anyway we had to be in school by 645 am, madness but jingwen and i acutally managed to be in school at 635. hhaha normal school days, at 635 i'll probably be pinning up my hair.

oh and today almost everyone i saw told me that my eyebags were especially dark and obvious. haahha, but i slept early last night you know! i slept around 11pm, which is considered early for a weeknight (my bed time is usually 2am). so i was quite shocked when they all said i looked tired. especially the eyebags part. actually it's the only part that bothered me. haha.

so we reported to the parade square and then to the field. haha we were paired up with a p5 class to play games. i wanted like a p1 or p2 class. then it'll be super fun because they'll all be so enthu. but the p5s weren't that bad. just abit disappointing, haah. 3A was so enthu and fun! haha we all jumped and did stupid actions to the songs the dj played. it was sort of like a bonding time.

then we formed the giant crest thing. haha, it was quite fast, i wonder if it looked nice from the top. and then we counted down to the count down. haha, rather weird but then when it came to "1", they let go the yellow and blue helium balloons and the confetti thing. haha we were all saying that the balloons looked like dna and molecules in the sky because they looked small and colourful from where we were. haha too much chemistry already. i bet miss lee will be overjoyed if she knows we're constantly thinking about chemistry.hahah.

the whole thing ended at 10 plus. then we headed back to the locker where we took even more photos. i'll post them here when EST (esther) sends them to me. ahah, yeah and we took quite long to go down and made belda wait quite a while. haha but when we came down she was busy admiring celeste's p1 brother. ahaha he's super cute and chubby and looks nothing like celeste. maybe only the nose. and we kept asking him about his favourite foods and drinks. haaha he's so nice to talk to. he'll grow up to be a fine young man, hahaha.

so we took very very long to decide where to eat, as usual. haha, i was craving for sushi for the past week. we changed from holland subway, to tiong bahru sakae sushi, and finally to ikea. haha and even before we crossed to ikea, we walked around anchorpoint because according to belda, it had variety. ahhaah, and her variety is the food court la, hahah. and we decided it was rather ex. so we crossed to ikea. haha, we ate ALOT. okay i ate alot. the spaghetti was quite tasteless but still edible, the potato salad was okay, and the chicken wings were the best. they always are.

there were many fairsians there, some 4E peeps and sec2 peeps and even mr lim seow chong and his wife, and mrs wong bee ting with dont know who. haha, and we didn't feel like moving after we finished eating, so we stoned there for about 1 hour or 2 hours. i dont know but it was quite long. we were all super restless but we didn't feel like walking. hhaa it's cosy there! then belda fell asleep half way through our conversation. ahha so kelso (kath) and i continued talking.
hahaha we've been talking about the same topic for many many days. haha right kelso?

so finally we decided to leave ikea and we went to anchorpoint, for more food. HAHA see i told you i ate alot. we found this small dessert shop called "food anytime" hahaha, the century egg congee and everything else looked so good in the picture. haha we regretted eating at ikea because the food at the dessert shop was cheap and looked good. but anyway, ikea will be renovating from 7th april until may so we wont really have another chance to eat there again until then, so it's okay(: and furthermore i love ikea! i will always support ikea.

hahah so we went home after that and i did abit of homework and went for piano. tomorrow no cell cuz it's the first week of the month. and the leaders have meeting with the douglas. so we'll be going to tampines mall to do homework together! haha, and most of the cell pals are triple sciencers sooooo i'll be getting them to help me with Chemistry: the chemical formula for covalent bonds.

haha, okay need to sleep now very very tired. goodnight.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

i feel so useless and demoralized now. i really cant do my homework. i mean, i know i HAVE TO do, and i WANT to do, but i cant. i dont know why, just cant bring myself to do. no mood, no interest. i know it's not supposed to be like that, i mean, you have to do even though no mood but it's really really no mood. and it's the second term already. everything's passing so fast, but yet so slowly.

for eg, the sec4s are stepping down next week, and thats super fast. the last time they said they were about to step down was 6 weeks ago or something. and it felt like it was last week. it's too fast. and i really hope the band will still be able to go on when the sec4s leave.

but for studies and homework, everything's passing sloooooowly. especially in emaths. ever since the trainee teacher came. i dont mean that he's not good, at least he tries to explain and help us understand, i can see all the effort. but it's just not the same as when miss ng was teaching. she got most of our attention, and at least, i felt an interest towards emaths. but even when miss ng was teaching, i felt that emaths was meaningless because we had amaths. and amaths is so much easier to understand and somemore with mr G. (the best) haha. now it's even worse. i really dont get the tan, sin, cos thing. i still get the basics, but the rules and everything is just too hard to get. anyway, jonathan liau will be helping me tomorrow. i think i'll understand better. i hope.

so anywayzzz, i suddenly missed 2c this morning. i dont knwo why, i didn't really feel much until today. i suddenly remembered everyone and how we used to be. and how we hung out after school. and all the cultural performance stuff, painting classroom, writing letters to chase teachers away. haaha it was just so carefree. so slack. so different from now.

but still, 3a is nice! i love 3a. hhaah, even though there're a 1 person/ few people getting on my nerves now and then, i still think they're nice. 3a rockssssss. cant wait for outings and chalets and class shirt!

i need a new motivation

Friday, March 21, 2008

it's 1:18am already and i was just looking through the pictures in my computer. i was trying to find a picture, hhaha, and i'm so angry with myself for losing it): haha, i think only natasha knows which one. i know it's somewhere around, i will never ever have deleted it. but ahhhh cant find.

so anyway, i came across many old photos. i saw pictures from the 1B bbq, to the 2C chalet, and also the new zealand trip photos. i felt so.. sad when i saw those pictures. like i finally found out that i'm living in the year 2008. surprisingly, the pictures that got me thinking the most was the new zealand photos.

when i saw the pictures, i suddenly remembered everything that happened. from the time that i was trying to decide if i should go for the trip,to the super ultra duper long plane ride there, to michelle- the tour guide, to the looooooooong bus rides, to the many different hostels we stayed in, to the very very very very very beautiful scenery, to the over generously served fish and chips, to the jetboat ride that we all enjoyed so much, to the school visit, to the.....and the list goes on, right till we met the little cute chubby boy on the plane back home, and when we were all playing cards.

i suddenly missed everything, all my group members and also all the other people on the trip. i want to go again!): and i didn't really treasure the time i had in new zealand, i didn't try my best to really appreciate and breathe in the new zealand air and all the new zealand stuff. i just made myself promise myself to go back to new zealand at least once more in my lifetime.

i guess this has taught me to really appreciate japan at the end of the year, with the band. i bet i'll miss it even more than what i feel about new zealand now. i cant waittttttt! ahhhhhhh!
i dont know why but i keep looking at the past today. first was the archives and now the photos, argh whats wrong with me.

lewis faster write your essay la! my sleep depends on your essay! hahaaha, okay i'll end off with a few of the pictures i love the most from the nz trip.










these are not the only ones i love, i love all of them, but i'd be crazy to post all of them again. ahhaa, i really really love nz(:


i was just reading my archives. hahah oh my gosh i was laughing to myself, i used words like "lyk" hahahah, yucks man omgoshhh. i bet few years from now i'll be reading this post or something and laugh and think how stupid i was. i think this is the evidence that people do change.

okay so today's Good friday-the day that Jesus died on the cross. haha, i forgot what Good friday was for. and i found out after the service, during lunch. and evan started doubting my deep knowledge and asked me what christmas was about. haha, i'm not that bad la evan.

we had this mime by this guy, i forgot this name. he mimed to the song "watch the lamb" by Ray Boltz. very very nice! hahah i found it on imeem already, go listen! haha, very meaningful. i've always wanted to learn how to mime. so now i have two things i want to learn-the saxophone and miming, probably after retiring or when i'm freeer than i am now.

haha, so cooool then i can go busking, is that how it's spelled?
okay gtg for good friday dinner at grandma's.

Jesus died for you and me on this day.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

this is the first time i used a label, ahah i wonder what it's supposed to do. anyway, got report book back today. the highest grade in there is an A2. haha, and thats for chinese.but it's good enough for me, i didn't even expect to get an A for any subject. i totally failed mooziq (music, hahaha), i got 22.1-F9!!!! wth man, im' starting to really really think i cant make it for mooziq. aww man, so demoralising. just hope i'll start getting used to mooziq and i'll at least, start passing. and i'm happy enough that i passed feezics (argh! why am i so lame!),since i failed all the tests. so, i calculated my L1R5, and i got a TWENTY EIGHT. wth, that cant get me anywhere. not even poly, i think. i keep telling myself to do better, and not slack so much, but i just cant get myself to do it. ):

so napfa after school just now, it was quite fun! hhaha, did with the other sec3s in art/music, or postponed due to various reasons. we did together with the lower sec galzzz. hhaha, which has its both good and bad points.

then went home with keren because she had tuition in holland. anyway, keren i hope you're okay(: dont think so much alright! and my mother just saw my report book, nagged abit and stopped, quite surprisingly. haha, didn't expect her to automatically stop. plus, she was rather understanding about the F9.

okay good friday tomorrow! going to Lighthouse Woodlands for the good friday service. the poor cell pals have to travel all the way from tampines. AWWWWW, ahha, now you know how i feel every sunday! then after that gotta go get shirt paint(?) from ArtFriend or something, then TRY to fix up clarence's shirt. i still feel bad, clarence. haha, he's read my blog, and thats....s urprising.

sooooo, goodnight and i bid thee farewell (haha).

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Monday, March 17, 2008

today was... stressed. had many things to do. they were like small things, but when you add all of them together, it's super arghh. the most stressful one was the nz shirt. wah, i tell you, can die man. i almost died from guilt because WE FORGOT CLARENCE'S NAME AT THE BACK OF THE SHIRT. i felt super super bad. and i still do. and the worst part was, that he was super nice about it. which made me feel worse. i cant seem to do anything right. i looked through and counted the names like trillion of times, and i still didn't notice that clarence's name was missing.
i feel so stupid and dumb now, i thought to myself "yes! finally i can do something without mistakes" and was just starting to feel relieved when clarence told me his name wasnt on it. argh i'm super sorry. really, i wont know how to react if i were him. i'll be super hurt and i wont want the shirt anymore. i dont know how clarence felt but i know it was definitely not a good feeling. i know im repeating this over and over, but i really feel very very bad. i wish i could do the whole t shirt again so i could add his name there, or exchange my name for his. arghhhh i cant stand myself.

but anyway, its no use just complaining and crying over spilt milk, so i came up with two solutions. one of them which keren has attempted but failed. and that is, using liquid paper to write his name onto his shirt. we thought it'd work since the font colour and font looked like liquid paper. but it failed in the end):

there's another solution, and that's to get the shirt paint from art friend or some other arty farty shop and write his name onto the shirt. i bet that'd work much better than the liquid paper. but it still isnt the same. since his name would only be on his shirt. but maybe you can think of it as unique, clarence. hahah, anyway, im really really really really really really sorry. ):

then another problem came, alot of the sec4 peeps said their shirts were too small. like one size smaller. i was panicking like mad. and i still am. since there hasnt been any news on whether they all managed to find the right size. and wesley was like "if not then bring back to the guy and ask him to give us the right sizes". thats crazy. and i DONT want to do that. so embarrassing and... i bet he'll be angry to the maxxxxxx. but anyway, there's a hope that the guys took the wrong shirts. cuz the list was messy with many different versions of sizes. i wrote the converted size in pencil and the wrong size was printed in ink. so im hoping and praying and hoping and praying and hoping and praying and hoping and praying that they saw the wrong size and took the wrong shirts. wesley said they'll tell us if things worked out. so i have to be kept in suspense till tomorrow. and i feel bad for not organizing the shirt sizes wrongly.

on top of all these problems, some people, said that the design was ugly and the leaf was out of shape, and all sorts of other comments. i was like argh, whats the problem with you all, because I thought it was quite okay, and most people said too. but i guess i couldn't bear to show it. that wasn't as bad as the other frustrations though.

and there was the emaths holiday homework, which had to be handed in by 6pm. and i hadn't even done half. and before that, i had amaths remedial. argh, amaths.

so my entire day was spent, balancing multiple thick textbooks and a extra thick file, while trying to carry two big heavy bags of shirts. but fortunately i had friends,e.g. kathleen, keren, wen min, esther, timothy, nicholas, yuwei, jun ming, who offered help to carry the shirts and i really thank you all. i know i sound stupid, thanking people for helping me carry SHIRTS, but it really helped alot. i think i'd probably have just died dragging those bags everywhere.

basically, i think i screwed up the whole nz shirt thing. i dont want to do another shirt anymore. i keep telling myself that but before i know it, i'm helping out with another shirt. argh, and clarence and to all the people who had trouble with the shirt sizes, i'm very very sorry.
i know none of you would be reading this, but i cant stand it, i just have to say sorry to someone.

Friday, March 14, 2008

helloooooo! just got back from band, okay not really just, but 2 hours ago. band wassss okay. haha, went through all the pieces for the performance this sunday. it better not rain on sunday manzzzz. haha, yeah and FMSS PEEPS PLEASE COME AND RENDER YOUR SUPPORT(;

okay and i ate yong tau foo for lunch. my mother cooked it and she's fantasizing about it.she keeps on talking about how her grandfather used to eat pots of yong tau foo for each meal. ahhah, i dont know how he did it, but yeah, pots of yong tau foo.

then she'll go on about the ingredients and how to prepare the meat and how much each piece will sell for. hahaha, it's quite funny because it's YONG TAU FOO. hhaa, of all things.
i'm supposed to be doing emaths/amaths now but i cant until i blog about this:

i couldn't sleep properly last night, i kept dreaming the same dream over and over again. and i'd wake up, and then continue sleeping. AND dream the same dream. haha, the dream was kinda stupid but it was quite freaky...

i dreamt i was at raffles link (i got lost there with the cell yesterday). and there were many shops, and there was this shop selling sandwhiches. so each time i walked past, two pieces of bread will drop from some machine, and then there'll be this girl who will put the veg and all the ingredients. and i kept saying i didn't want it but they kept making. ahhaha, so when i finally ate it, they forced me to join the membership club. and i was supposed to find customers for them. and i'll get commission la. and my friends kept blaming me because they had to join the membership club after they ate the sandwhich. hahaha, i know its super stupid. but it was damn irritating. haha, i wanted to get out of that dream but each time i slept again, it's the same dream, it was like a nightmare. i think it's because i ate subway yesterday hahha, i dont want to see another sandwhich until i get over this dream man.

okay i bet the dream doesnt make sense to you because i forgot some parts of the dream. but it's roughly like that. ahha it better not happen tonight man.

oh and The Mind Cafe is officially my fave hang out hahahaha, i was there with some of my cellmates yesterday. super fun mannnnnnnn. oh my gosh i want to go again. ahha great place to bond, and relax. okay not really relax cuz most of the games we played were reaction games. hahah, i shouted and screamed until i almost lost my voice. hahahh, 8AKK let's go there one day! it'll be super fun!

dinner later with POSER ACADEMY. haha, and we're going to wear our teeeeeees! haha so cool so cool. okay better start doing homework.

Friday, March 07, 2008

i think it's been a long time since i posted but anyway
today was the last day of school. next week is holiday. it's only 1 week. and lots and lots of homework. but still, at least i can wake up later. haha, holidays are just an excuse for teachers to give us more homework la. i rather not have holidays then.

band was okay today. just tiring because kaze needs stamina to play which i dont really have. haha i'll end up dying at the end of the piece. maybe today because ryan didn't come so i had to play the part all myself. hahaa, and sometimes all of a sudden i cant pitch which is scary if it happens on the actual day. oh and just now when i was playing, i felt like someone else was playing. i mean i felt like someone was playing through me which was scary. haha i didn't feel like i was the one playing. because like there were many high E notes in the piece. and i normally cant play so many continously. so i when i saw the high E coming, i was like oh no die die. but when it came i could play. so it didn't feel like me. haha okay i dont know how to describe it.

hmmm okay so tomorrow is like a music day man. i have the band exchange at crescent in the morning, then piano, then i'm accompanying my sister on the piano for her violin recital. totally music man.

i have to get up at 645am tomorrow and lug 3kg around. yeah i have to bring my horn on my own. ): haiyo. okok i need my sleep now. goodnight(:

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

dont you think mary is a cool name. haha i was just telling belda about naming my future daughter mary. hahaah i think it'll be quite cool if you're the only mary around. hahah, not like rachels man. everywhere. but i think my daughter will hate me for naming her that la. haahh.

okay music was cancelled today. haha 3rd time man! i kept making samantha jealous because apparently art is very stressing. haha, i was late today. together with jingwen and ren ting. ren ting's mother fetched us from jingwen's house. and good thing it was raining so there wasn't detention(:

haha, physics is getting more complicated. we're learning about free fall now. super confusing, especially when mr liew teaches. and what's worse is that he doesnt care about me and ignores all my questions. i think all the teachers dont like me this year. they're all ignoring me): haha,anyway me and wen min observed something during physics class. haha and i really think we're right. haha.

so with music cancelled, me and belda had the afternoon free! haha quite a rare occassion. and the rest had cg and nicole had art. so we decided to HEAD DOWN TO SUMO HOUSE. haha but when the bus finally came, my mother called and told me to go home. okay she ordered me to go home.

so i felt and i still feel damn bad because we waited super long for the bus and in the end we couldn't go. haha sorry belda ): but on the bright side, i saved $4. haha i havent been saving these days. and in fact i've been spending. i dont know on what, but the money just keeps disappearing. haha, and i have to pay $21.50 for the clique shirt. hahah, i hope jingwen typo error. and it was meant to be $12.50. hahah, possible what. $21.50 is just too shocking.

hahah okay so gtg sleep now bye.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

went jogging just now at chip bee gardens with belda. haha chip bee gardens is a nice place to walk or jog. the houses there make you feel like you're far from the city and in some other country. haha one of the nicer and interesting places in holland.

haha, so went to vivo marche for lunch. but actually i reached harbourfront at like 9 something. dont know why my mother wanted to go so early. haha, so we sat at macs and i did my homework. getting a little better at logarithms. at least there's abit of improvement.

piano lesson today was stressful because i couldn't play well. and i could feel my teacher's pek chekness. haha, but i tried my best. my exam is in july and i'm not even like half prepared. all my pieces are damn fast and i'm only like 1 third the speed. it's like band la, not even half the actual speed. so scary. and the national band competition is in july too. super stressful la.

and tuesday is the actual music practical test. i didn't even know until belda told me just now. i havent choose my piece yet! and i think i'll screw up on that day.

oh and interview tomorrow! for sparklers ministry. haha, hope i dont say something stupid and embarrass myself. haha, okay gtg bathe super sticky okay bye.

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